Jun 25, 2007

Painful



I am sick of this Life .. plz God Help me .. am patient but its painful.

Painful to see everybody rely on me .. while I have nobody to rely on.


Painful that I should smile .. I should laugh for u people.. all these false masks I try to show …
just to bury my deep sadness.

Painful .. that I have nobody .. yet everybody is there !

Painful .. am in a deep pain .. deep sorrow .. yet it's not something that I can control ..

It's just something within my soul .. beeing tortured in the middle of no where.

I am lost God ... in this endless pain .. yet nobody can feel it .. expect my soul ... this is real God ? .. not any kind of nightmare ?

The tears are burred in the prison of silence .. where I should hide them from being exposed to the world of crying out loud ... I keep press my self to let them drop silently !

Even if I let them free .. it won't be anything but more sorrowing.

I am depressed .. this is not something I can do anything about .. it's beyond my abilities !

it's just REAL and PAINFUL.






7 comments:

SolaimaN said...

Good evening dalal

stop here..!!

it's not something that I can control ..

It's just something within my soul

ooooooooh there is many thing :(

1-music tone

2-meaning

3-comparison

4-pain

5-slipping away

don't stop plz.

Ni3Na3aH said...

nice words.. can relate to it my self but girl you have to keep your spirit up and look at the bright side in your life coz this is life.. youm lik o youm 3alaik.
tk care

راعيها said...

I am depressed .. this is not something I can do anything about .. it's beyond my abilities

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It took me few years to realize this fact

Dalal said...
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Dalal said...

SolaimaN

Thanks for the sweet words.

7ayak any time in my blog !

Dalal said...

Ni3Na3aH

aheleen wallah .. well and these are just words during a bad mood .. so as u said .. everyday u have different mood :P

Thnx for passing by ... kel yoom ta3aly ... 7ayach ;)

Dalal said...

راعيها

I don't think it needs all this time to realise what wrong with u unless.. u doesn’t have some self instinct (i.e. peace of mind) .. even during depression periods !

Thanks :P