I am sick of this Life .. plz God Help me .. am patient but its painful.
Painful to see everybody rely on me .. while I have nobody to rely on.
Painful that I should smile .. I should laugh for u people.. all these false masks I try to show … just to bury my deep sadness.
Painful .. that I have nobody .. yet everybody is there !
Painful .. am in a deep pain .. deep sorrow .. yet it's not something that I can control ..
It's just something within my soul .. beeing tortured in the middle of no where.
I am lost God ... in this endless pain .. yet nobody can feel it .. expect my soul ... this is real God ? .. not any kind of nightmare ?
The tears are burred in the prison of silence .. where I should hide them from being exposed to the world of crying out loud ... I keep press my self to let them drop silently !
Even if I let them free .. it won't be anything but more sorrowing.
I am depressed .. this is not something I can do anything about .. it's beyond my abilities !
it's just REAL and PAINFUL.